Genderbent
Exploring gender, transmasculinity & mental illness

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Feb
26
I think this is grief

I think this is grief

How are we expected to keep going as though trans kids dying isn’t exactly what politicians and anti-trans campaigners wanted to achieve with these laws?
7 min read
Feb
11
If being trans was a choice, I'd still choose it

If being trans was a choice, I'd still choose it

It’s existing in a transphobic society that is painful. Being trans itself is not. Being trans – to me at least – is joy.
7 min read
Jan
28
Cry like a boy

Cry like a boy

Cis men’s tears can cost them their admission to masculinity, and trans men face far more scrutiny over our gender than they do.
7 min read
Jan
14
Testosterone isn't why  men are violent

Testosterone isn't why men are violent

I knew with absolute certainty that I wanted to start testosterone. But a small part of me was afraid that the hormones that could save my life would also turn me into someone my old self would have been scared of.
10 min read
Nov
18
Dear Quinn: why do you describe your sex as 'male'?

Dear Quinn: why do you describe your sex as 'male'?

I call myself male because I am not interested in upholding the false binary of ‘biological sex’ that is used to oppress and discriminate against trans people.
9 min read
Oct
20
Does this count as a hate crime?

Does this count as a hate crime?

How are you supposed to react when someone calls you the t-slur on the tube platform?
8 min read
Sep
09
Sometimes I forget that my chest isn't flat

Sometimes I forget that my chest isn't flat

I tore off the shirt. It didn’t matter how soft it felt against my skin or how masc it made me feel, I couldn’t get over the horrific reality of how I would look to other people. I was grossed out by my own body.
7 min read
Aug
11
I didn't publish anything during Pride month

I didn't publish anything during Pride month

"Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation and that is an act of political warfare." – Audre Lorde
7 min read
Jun
02
One year on testosterone

One year on testosterone

I don't know if cis people understand how serious trans people are being when we say that gender-affirming healthcare saves lives. I might still be alive today if I hadn't been able to start testosterone, but I don't think I'd want to be.
6 min read
May
05
The single letter that would erase my transness

The single letter that would erase my transness

If I die waiting for top surgery, forget burial – just drop my body on the steps of 10 Downing Street.
7 min read